As the days progress it becomes harder to pretend that everything is ok. Life becomes tedious and everything is mundane. The side effects include intense procrastination that escalates the situation. Its getting real stuffy in here.

So I have been wondering...if the Gay Gene does indeed exist and may show that a person is born gay, and that homosexuality is simply an innate, genetic and, therefore, unchangeable — a normal variant of human nature , with possible common traits…

South Africa has been a wonderful place to spent my childhood, true, it has the worlds highest Crime Rate and highest cases of AIDS worldwide, I have been fortunate enough to have lived in a bubble where this is all less evident.

People unfamiliar with Africa usually associate her with death, poverty and big scary animals. This is however not the case as many parts of Africa are actually very advanced.

I remember when I went back to school in Taiwan once during a short holiday; one of the kids there asked me if I had kept a lion in my garden. I told him yes and also said I rode an Elephant to school everyday.

In truth the only animal I have in my garden was a dog. (I think I have only seen a Lion twice in my life which was when I went to the local Reserve Park.)

Economically the strongest in Africa, life here in SA (if you have money) can be just as good as any first world countries. The relaxed atmosphere, beautiful scenery, brilliant weather can make everyday seem like a holiday. I can see the sea from my house and the beach is about 20 minutes drive from where I live, and if I fancy a hike, about half a days traveling will get me to the nearest mountain.


Now with less then a week to go, I am leaving all this for good, along with the friendship I have built over the years, to study back home, in a city with a population density so high, when you fart about twenty other people will wrinkle their nose.

Alas…South Africa, I will miss you and your wonderful, diverse people. Maybe someday we shall meet again. Until then…Keep Well.

They say ‘To get started, you must have a Destination’, well here are just some of the reasons I have started to blog, and eventual aims I would like to see happening. These goals should serve as a guide, hopefully, when I don’t know what to do.

1) To develop a Voice:

This is quite self explanatory, I think writing and communication are very important skills we can’t do without, and this blog is simply a nice way to do this and still receive feedback from others.

2) Improve my Chinese:

As a Taiwanese born guy my English is far better then my Chinese. Although I can still speak and read the language, I can hardly write it after living in another country for 12 years of my youth. Since I am returning home to study, my Chinese needs to be up to scratch. So for this blog, what I would eventually like to do is to translate my posts, so hopefully one day this blog will both be in English and Chinese. Although this definitely won’t be happening anytime soon!

3) Come out the Closet:

I hesitate to write this, as I am still very much uncomfortable about this whole thing. I dunno… although I have known for quite some time now that I am gay, I have mostly kept it to myself. I think publicly stating this on the internet is already quite something for me. So with this blog I would like to gain some confidence and come to terms with myself more, so eventually I would be able to step out this closet.

4) Make friends:

I would like to meet people in similar situations, as I don’t have any gay friends at the moments. More importantly I would like to help others like me (give advice? When I do go through this myself), especially in Taiwan. It’s a pretty conservative culture, but this will probably only happen when I do eventually improve my Chinese.

These are just some ideas I have for this blog at this moment, (these won’t necessary happen and definitely not any time soon), but I would like to view this as an ongoing project that I can dip into in my spare time. This won’t be a Coming-Out-Blog, I don’t think, but more of a Coming-To-Age-Blog, as I fumble for my place in this world.